Misunderstood

Just finished exam yesterday. After 3 weeks of studying hard (erm... not really) and intense stress, I finally have something and time to post something here.

I am not going to talk about how I did my papers, but about a post on a friend's blog. Though it was written a few days ago, due to intense study, I just saw the post today. From my understanding, she felt some regret of coming here to study because people seems to misunderstand her, not knowing the actual person she is, and insulting her for being something she thinks she's not (I hope she is not talking about me).

I sometimes feel what she felt too. Whether in NTU or not, I sometimes feel people around me don't really understand me. People seems to misunderstand my actions, thoughts and words. What I am in people's eyes is not really who I am. Is it because of my lacking of communication skills? Or maybe different people interpret things differently? I don't know.

Sometimes I meant to be joking, but end up it become an insult, and being branded as "rude". Sometimes I do something what I think has nothing wrong about it, it is deemed inappropriate by others (I think this applies to what we usually called "bad habits" as well).

The appropriateness of what we do, think or say is determined by the people around us, not by ourselves. If people say you are rude, then you are rude. If people say you are insulting them, then you are insulting them. Some people here ask me why I went to a independent school, and enter university earlier than them. "Why you spend your parents' money to study in school?" "Why you want to come one (or two) year(s) earlier than us?"... I know they are joking, but I don't feel happy, or rather, I feel offended by it. It seems that they are questioning my qualifications to enter the university.

For those who are offended by my actions, thoughts and words, please don't keep it in mind. I am really sorry about it. I didn't mean to insult you. I don't like to insult people, nor do I like to be insulted by others. Please accept my sincere apology, OK?