Out of control

March 2009 is not a particularly good month for me.

OK, firstly: it's not about tests and assignments, these are still within my limit of control; what really troubles me is things beyond my control.

March 2, Monday: First day of school after recess. The stabbing incident on campus. I will not elaborate on the "official" account and the media reports; there are also competing theories that challenge the "official" account . There is even a facebook group dedicated to find out the truth. Then, on Friday, suicide case. There are rumours that these two cases are somehow linked. What really happens is still a mystery. Anyway, the cases are still "under police investigation".

March 7, Saturday night: No church service. At 7.45 pm, I called my brother, who was NS-ing in Kuala Kangsar. I called him to check on the condition of his injured hand. We talked happily for half an hour. A few hours later, mum SMSed me: my brother was in hospital because of high fever. That was his third injury/illness while in NS; this time mere days before completing NS. It really troubled me; thank God that he was alright by the next day.

March 12, Thursday: Release of SPM results. I called my brother, who was at home for the 2nd day after NS, to ask about his results. My heart sanked; his results are not good. He barely passed his Malay and Moral. The fact that he passed Malay is already considered some sort of a blessing. Of these incidents, this is the one that I most regret of; I could have done something to help him, but I've barely done anything.

March 16, Monday: An ordinary school day, and start of the Malaysian one-week school holiday. Mum was in China. She SMSed me and asked me to call Uncle 1 in Singapore. Apparently someone in my family was not in good condition. I called my uncle, and he told me a shocking news: Uncle 4 who lives in KL suffered a stroke the last Monday. The right side of his body is paralyzed. His only son is only eight years old this year. According to my brother on Tuesday (March 24), Uncle 4 is still in hospital.

That's all for this emo blog. Time to go to bed, and to live out the last seven days of March 2009.


Into your hands I commit my spirit;
redeem me, O LORD, the God of truth.
-- Psalm 31:5

March-ing onwards

The much-awaited break (at least for me) had come to an end. Got to go back home and really chilled for a week: sleeping, eating (I started to miss all the good foods!!!), online-ing, watching TV... Well, a bit too relaxed... Didn't even touch the heavy Quantitative Chemical Analysis that I brought home, let alone the lab report and the HP802 assignment.

Really need to march on... or, maybe, run... I am falling behind...